Gonna Sleep Now

Thrifted dress worn as top, H&M sequin skirt, Kenzo hat, Asos earrings, Pylones bag, POP Flats shoes

Many things have been going on in my mind, though they are random and vague it feels difficult to describe what they are. I feel exhausted and anxious, and I guess S has been hearing this a lot from me. Thank God he is as patient, understanding and calming as I want him to be whenever I tell him about all this.

I guess whatever I do, whatever I achieve, I can never forget that feeling back in May. The moment when I lost my baby and played the strong-woman who said "I'm okay". Maybe I am, but maybe a part of me isn't. I have fully accepted the reality and understand that God has the best plans for us. I'm just scared. Was it my fault? Was I too tired? Did I not consume enough vitamins? Will I ever get that chance again?

I'm getting to understand the beauty of motherhood. Everyday I babysit my nephew Keenan and no matter how tiring it is, it's simply..beautiful. I guess I just want to experience that too, but with my own child...:')

Running a business is very exhausting too. Even more than working in the corporate world no matter how scary your boss might be or how demanding your client is. Running your own business requires full focus, passion, determination, persistence and the need to always be ready for changes, heartbreaks and failure.

Anyway, I love Allah and I am grateful for everything Allah gives me in life. Insya Allah everything will be okay because good things always come to those who love life.

Good night! :)

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